I joined an online Autism support group today, and have already received emails of support. People can be so caring and wonderful. I am grateful that I know how to ask for help, and that I know it does not show a weakness to need help, rather is shows a strength of character to ask for it.

I have been humbled a number of times in my life. The work that I do, working with adults and youth in a prison setting, is also humbling. I have learned to count my blessings. Not a day goes by that I don't know, that "there for the grace of God go I". I have also learned that when things appear the worse, they are really about to get a whole lot better. Better than I ever imagined it could be.

My Tori is about to have her life expand. She starts school in two weeks, and there she can be taught and cared for. However, she will never be loved as much as her Gma loves her. I am SO grateful for the people in her life who have patience, and can think outside of the box. I know, by my years of working with "special" people, that what they truly need is to be accepted and worked with on their level. I'm grateful that God has given me the gift to do this. I am an "out of the box" person myself, so relate very easily to others who are not the usual type. As a matter of fact, I find it difficult to relate to people who are not a little bit different.

I am told that I may not see my Tori tomorrow, and have been "raged" at for my blog. This is just another day for me. I am unusual and am used to people judging me. I am not autistic, but like autistic people, I demand to have a voice and to be accepted for who I am. It is just too difficult trying to contort myself to fit other people's expectations. I am comfortable being me, and can only pray for the people who judge. I am at peace, they are not.